I have been through the most worse emotional 2 weeks of my entire life.
Breaking up with b/f. Not only did he have an emotional affair, I just found out that he had a sexual affair with a different woman last year. He confessed. I had NO clue. Talk about feeling like a fool. But I guess with being sick with depression for 2 years, he said well you slept through most of it. and he is right.
Anyhow, I am trying to find a way to heal from that news. I thought the emotional affair was enough, but damn.
I guess the woman he was screwing is in love with him. He has no feelings for her. She is still chasing after him. The woman he had the emotional affair with he loves, and he thinks she has feelings for him, although they have not been verbalize. What a fricking mess.
How does a person overcome the betrayal? How does a person get through the devastation? I have never been through this before. I can not find the anger. All I feel is wanting to forgive and to try to work things out!! I AM A FOOL. One minute I am hurting so badly, the next I feel strong, the next I am weak. UGGGGH the emotions are too much.

On a brighter note. I have another job interview on friday. Better paying, benefits and overtime mandatory. I am excited and hope that I am hired. Kinda scared about getting my responsibilities here at home taken care of ie sitter for tailor, dad's care etc. Time will tell

I am hurting.