I have been through the most worse emotional 2 weeks of my entire life.
Breaking up with b/f. Not only did he have an emotional affair, I just found out that he had a sexual affair with a different woman last year. He confessed. I had NO clue. Talk about feeling like a fool. But I guess with being sick with depression for 2 years, he said well you slept through most of it. and he is right.
Anyhow, I am trying to find a way to heal from that news. I thought the emotional affair was enough, but damn.
I guess the woman he was screwing is in love with him. He has no feelings for her. She is still chasing after him. The woman he had the emotional affair with he loves, and he thinks she has feelings for him, although they have not been verbalize. What a fricking mess.
How does a person overcome the betrayal? How does a person get through the devastation? I have never been through this before. I can not find the anger. All I feel is wanting to forgive and to try to work things out!! I AM A FOOL. One minute I am hurting so badly, the next I feel strong, the next I am weak. UGGGGH the emotions are too much.

On a brighter note. I have another job interview on friday. Better paying, benefits and overtime mandatory. I am excited and hope that I am hired. Kinda scared about getting my responsibilities here at home taken care of ie sitter for tailor, dad's care etc. Time will tell

I am hurting.

4 Responses to "Emotional 2 weeks"

  1. Littlestflutterby Says:

    Hugs Kristy. I've been where you are. If you need a shoulder, I'm here to listen.

  2. Shelley Says:

    Oh my dear. Cha sent me. Firstly, let me say he should NEVER throw your depression in your face. Never, ever. I have been on that roller coaster myself and my hub didn't go have a fling. It takes a real man to be there through thick and thin (literally and figuratively...HA) no matter what. Life gets too complicated and he has a fling? Please.

    It feels dreadful now, but you will be okay. Will keep you in my prayers. It's okay to feel the way you're feeling. And at least he cheated with a chick. My best friend's dad had been having gay relationships through 25 years of marriage. That one sucked the life out of them. But even they healed.

    Chin up, and we'll be here to keep lifting you up. Cheers!

  3. Kat Says:

    big huge cyber ((((hug)))), you know I have been there done it all, totally understand how you are feeling and its hard to be mad and to want to work things out, my neighbour said it to me why would you want to be with a man who obviously cant make you the one and only as you would him, wow eye opener but still no anger, now its just pity for him, and after 4 years and a bit still pity but emotions are now no longer there, time will heal and in the mean time it sucks! keeping busy helps and spending time with your child and father!!!

    sorry long winded but bottom line (((hugs))) you are not alone

  4. ablondeblogger Says:

    I came here by way of ChaCha. My heart is breaking for you. I am SO sorry.

    First of all, do NOT blame yourself and don't let his blame (which is merely his way of easing his guilt) get to you.

    Any man that would throw his girlfriend's depression in her face like that does NOT deserve that woman.

    Times like this will make you feel like every flaw you've ever felt you have is magnified times 1,000. But this is not reality. It's like looking through one of those fun house mirrors. You can't trust it now because everything is distorted by your hurt and emotions.

    Unfortunately, I've been through this. I had to laugh when you said he thinks the emotional affair woman returns his feelings. I am willing to bet a million dollars he's wrong.

    If you ever want to talk about it with me, I'm here.

    (My husband left me for the emotional affair woman after 16 years of marriage, but in the end, she did not return his feelings after all. I did forgive him and things are okay now, but I went through the whole blaming myself deal, too).

    My email is ablondeandherblog@yahoo.com

    Hang in there and you will be in my prayers.

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